Exhausted

I'm Exhausted.
Mentally.
Physically.
Enough.

Internet dating is grim

Internet dating is grim.
Don't get me wrong I've met some awesome people.
None that I want to actively date.

I have decided that I can't have it all,
It can't be the same music likes, same movie likes, same TV likes, same comic likes or a love of video games.

It needs to be one though.

I reckon someone with the same movie likes or who at least enjoys movies - they don't even need to be the same movies as me but I love discussing movies.
TV would be a good added plus but most people will like at least a few shows that I like.
Music and other geek stuff doesn't need to be too important but would be awesome.

The thing is most of the people I have met do not fit into any or maybe one bracket.
And that poses and issue, if someone is beautiful but hates all the stuff you like is it worth it.
If someone isn't your type but loves all the things you love does this make them more beautiful?
It's a strange process but I am at the stage where I want to have a bash at dating and maybe a relationship again, I am terrified of being hurt but I reckon if I don't do it now I may never do it.
Things with my ex are good, I don't want that relationship back and I don't pine for her, its time to move on in my love life.

so applications for a girlfriend can be submitted here:
must love:
.Scott Pilgrim
.Bon Iver
.City and Colour
.Star Wars
.The soundtrack to Guardians of the Galaxy
.Video games of any kind
.Batman
.Deadpool
.Comic books no matter how wanky
.Chuck
.The Flash
.Firefly/Serenity
.The bit in Stand by Me where Will Wheaton stands up for his friends
. The end of E.T.
.Lethal Weapon
.Christmas (the seasonal holiday)
.Cuddles
.Spooning on a couch and watching movies/TV
.building forts and kidding on we are awesome
.Long woodland walks
.Being by the water
.the original Dawn of the Dead
.Long drives
.Kisses
.Forehead kisses
.sex (had to be said)
.many more geek shit!!!!

I'm not asking too much am I?

Plus would it hurt to wake up like this one morning?

Spit out by your mouth

This song.

Bushes of Love

The last few days have been a lot of fun.

Hanging with friends and lifting my spirits.

I rediscovered this:

"But we all got a chicken - duck - woman - thing waiting for us"

I could listen to this nonstop for days.

Looking for answers where there are none

I decided to start reading again.

Since most of my books are digital I thought it would be best to head to a used book store and pick up some real books for work. 

                                                          Picked up these: 

The Devil's Staircase
Open City
The Gift (The first book of Pellinor)

Maybe these will make work more palatable and stop people asking me stupid questions.

Help yourself

 Woke up in a strange downbeat mood.
This song has been playing in my ears all day on constant repeat

"that I'll always be your and you were never truly mine"
She's fucking speaking directly to me.


 It was gloomy but decided I needed to be by the water to calm my head and cool my heart.

It didn't work.

So many regrets.

Wish I had a time machine.